breath of fresh air!!!!

So the last few posts have sounded a bit desperate and dark. I finally feel a bit more at ease and comfortable. Things have been moving at a much more controlled pace for me and i have noticed less anxiety with my day to day activities. These last two weekends have been lots of fun!! Last weekend we went to the garden center to pick out a pumpkin. We have yet to make it into a jack o' lantern, but later this week. Tough for me to justify feeding the squirrels too early and I have yet to come up with a good idea of what to carve!! If you would have asked me a few weeks ago it would have surely been an angry face. I think this time it will be smiley, almost clown like! Hey, clowns can be creepy. Speaking of clowns...a wise man once said with a clown leaves the circus its not the circus he misses....its the other clowns...what a guy!!! Anyways, the garden center...attached are a few photos from that adventure.....moving on to this weekend..Saturday was gloomy and chilly with a bit of mist in the air!!! Football weather, if you will...what do we do??? Let's go on an adventure downtown!!! Park the car take the stroller out and take the hammer for a nice long walk. We made it al the way to Millennium Park and did the tourist thing. Took in the bean and other sights. For me it went beyond that. I got to take in the sights that I have been missing for so long. The sights that I don't need to drive to a special location to see. The sights that come free of charge. The sights that give me goosebumps much like the skyline does when I return from a road trip. My family!!! How great it was to smile, laugh, love, and share. Really being able to share is something that I'm sure they have been missing too!!! Wow how lucky I am...It's really weird. Us city dwellers that spend our whole lives in this town sometimes fail to realize just how prized and special it is. Attached are a couple more photos from this adventure as well. The highlight was our return trip to the car Northbound on Michigan Avenue and the hammer had freed himself from his shoulder harness and was only buckled in by his waist strap. He stood up, much like leo dicaprio in Titanic, and for the last few blocks had his arms out, was smiling and putting on a show for everyone looking at him. He was a true star!!! I am surrounded by stars!!! How lucky we truly are when we take time to breathe the fresh air!!!!